Sunday, September 21, 2008

Losing touch

There are some people in your life that you can always count on. The ones who you know, no matter how many years go by without talking to, when you do, its like you were never out of touch. And they are usually the same ones you can count on to help you at all times, no matter what.

But what if you feel that knowing this, you both have made lesser efforts than you should have, to get in touch with each other, and keep in touch? to put things another way, the closer you are to a person, the more you take them for granted?

These days I feel like I am losing someone who is very close to me, just because I have been having a little too many 'I'll call you back's..

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

SBaB updates

The SBaB program worked really well. I finally got one experiment to work. But now as I explained to my husband (who is so tired of listening to me and my 'experiments') I just mixed the right colours, now I have the whole sky to paint with that colour.

Ever get a premonition? Like today, right as I walked in to the room to view my results, I thought, today this thing has to work. Was it premonition, or was it that I had known that I had finally eliminated all the kinks in the experiment and knew that now, nothing could go wrong?

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

How the step back and breathe program's going so far

As I decided in my previous post, I decided to just step back and breathe. And relax. First, I thought I would just take the morning off, but as morning turned into evening, I decide that well, some more vacay time wont hurt, and it ended up that I did not go to the lab for the whole 'business hours' day.

And its been more or less fabulous. I woke up at 10 am, and made myself a nice hot coffee and watched some Hoda Kotb and Kathie Lee Grifford push pull on TV. I had a nice shower in some Crabtree and Evelyn bath products we picked up from our hotel room in Hilton because as Ross says , 'They're built into the price'. Then came back and turned the TV to watch 2 minutes of 'The View' , because frankly, that's all I can take of that show. Went online , blurked and twlurked. Made some comments.

Peeled some onions and vacuumed the peels off, scaring myself in the process.

Was reminded of so many blogs that I used to visit, but don't these days. Not sure what the reason was, but that's okay I don't have to read everything that everyone says, all the time. That's like wanting to watch all the TV channels there are.

But then yet, visited a couple. Neutralized the bad taste in my mouth from watching the View.

You know which other sucky morning show I used to watch? Live with Regis and Kelly.No no, it wasn't voluntary, but that show was always on during my wait for my early morning doctor's appointments. In fact, thanks to that I have a nice association with the show. Bless the doctor.

Wrote a long winded nonsensical autobiographical post on my day. Stopped feeling guilty about adding crap to the internet . (Yes, I have that fear..I liked to think that I should conserve the space blogger's alloted me by posting something sensible. But screw that. If Regis and Kelly can have their show, I can have my blog.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Step back and breathe

It is one of those days, where I keep doing an experiment and suddenly lose track of why I am doing it in the first place. It turns into a war. I HAVE to make it work, I HAVE to make it work, and finally I am not even sure why I started the experiment out in the first place. This time, now that I have realised it, I hope I approach things more rationally. And step back and breathe when needed. I am doing the same exact experiment, tweaking it here and there for the past five days, the last time this happened, tweaking went on for a year after which one day, everything just miraculously fell into place. I hope this time I don't have to go on for one year before I hit pay dirt. and oh yeah, that one year, was just 'method optimization' I still needed another month to analyze samples after that. Oh well such is science. It's true what TGFI says about science.