Sunday, December 27, 2009

Last name bijness

This holiday season is proving to be hilarious. I just started working in this organization in Sept. Everyone knows me by my last name. Which is my maiden last name since I decided change it once my passport is up for renewal.

Of course, no one at work knows that, though they know I am married. So imagine when cards come to our home address addressed to 'Mr. and Mrs. T'. It just is too funny and certainly not what I expected to happen. I mean I don't really care about my last name, and had always planned to change it, but never got around to it...

telling my co-workers that they sent cards to my parents is going to be a good conversation topic for a couple of hours. :)

Cleaning out

The impending arrival is making me nervous by the minute. there is no place in the house! There is so much junk everywhere ( I found my Crest whitestrips from my wedding time, hiding in a box) I have to get everything out. The hardest part is trying to decide what is needed and ehat is not, and right now I have decided that, nothing is needed. Everything except the husband and be bought again if needed.

So that's it. The garbage can is going to be brimming this week.

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Creative baby toys

Apparently some babies play with their poop. Once they poop they put their hand down their diaper and play with the deposit.. while I can see how that may be fun, I hope I don’t have to deal with a baby who is fascinated by poop…

Sunday, November 29, 2009

I miss Gratisgab. She had the most funniest blog ever. And now she doesnt post anymore. I'm sad.

Brothers and Sisters.

A is VERY close to his brother. My dad and his brother are not on talking terms. I know another set who used to hang out together in the same bunch of friends, but never really seemed to talk to each other. And now that they have their own lives, I really doubt they talk to each other, not because they hate each other, but because they have nothing to talk about..

On the other hand, I don;t know any sisters who are indifferent or not on talking terms. Is this a brother thing? Not sure.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

How I spend my weekend

Saving $150. adding cushions to my old $5 rocking chair, and testing it out as a rocker/glider.
Going to maternity clothing stores to buy clothes, and burning those aforementioned $150.
Signing up for a free back massage (nothing is ever free, but they haven't met me yet.)
Going to Pottery Barn Kids and hitting up on an idea. Tell parents to get high quality sheets from India. And have mom-in-law make quilts from high quality fabric. Also buy a nice Singer machine here, and set up a sweatshop and make the moms make all kinds of cute things for the baby. They will have to show me results at the end of the day. And if they are not what I had in mind, off goes the heating..(maybe it should be called a freezeshop)
Going through one mom blog after the other.. this is probably the most wasteful activity of the weekend. Even more than dozing.

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

what to do now.

When I defended my thesis, I took an oath: Never to bring work home again. Ever. There are a lot of things I could do at home, and frankly, life is much easier if the two are separate.
However, right now, I don't have much to do at home. Of course there's the dishes and the cleaning of the entire freaking house. But the dishes are A's job for now, and the house will be cleaned over the weekend.
So what do I do now?

Ooh. How about a little bit of thought organizing. I used to use OneNote quite extensively during my phd,but stopped using it since the writing started. So maybe get back to doing that.
And of course, fill the blog with yapyap and more yap.


Watched some seriously creepy vids on youtube about baby movements at week 24. seriously. why would people record their bellies and then post the videos on youtube? anyway, did that because i was concerned that I wasn't feeling anything much, and the fact that i don't really look preggers. and then last night, i got kicked in the belly. For a change not by A, but by A's future offspring. aww.:) went from a 'shit. what was that'. to ' i have to act all mommy', to finally patting my belly at an attempt at being maternal.. frankly, last night was the first night I felt something 'emotionally' for the baby, and not just omg am i killing it by eating this shrimp or taking this vaccine.

hopefully i get more maternal as days pass.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

To get shot or not?

Approaching a serious catch-22 situation, and unless I take a stand now, this thing is going to get out of control.

It's about deciding to take the H1N1 vaccine. For a while I was sure I wasn't going to take it, but then since I am flying across the country in what will be close quarters with people I don't really know, I decided that I will.

I am not sure what my thought process is, but basically, if I don't take the shot, and get the flu and die, then all the arguments about what will happen to the baby are really moot, aren't they?

Somehow, right now I am more willing to take the risk of unknown effects than the known effect that pregnant women are very susceptible to the harmful effects of the flu.

Now only if the vaccine was in fact available..

Friday, October 23, 2009

Sitting at work, waiting for a to come pick me up..

I need something to do . Today wasn't an altogether waste but still. My fat fingers haven't yet adapted to the but butt keys of the iPhone but hey, I am managingbto type whole sentences out . Lunch was bad today ,.. Split pea soup which wa s essentially tasteless dal. Buy atleast the baby's wiggling keeps me amused..

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Reflections on day two

Love This.

Oddly, one of my mom's first reactions when I told her I was finally done..'so tell me now, how much longer did it REALLY take'..(she lost patience at year 4.. so for the past two years its been 'get it done with already')

Dad's first reaction when I told him I'll be staying back where I am and take up a lower paying job..'one must learn to dream a little bigger'..thanks..:| ..I can never ever dare to tell my parents that sometimes I feel like becoming a housewife. They will personally come here and kick my ass. Even though I am a 'grownup'.

But at least their expectations are intact. Never once did they even sneakily suggest I reproduce..Love my parents for the back-handed 'encouragement' they have been providing most of the time.. and the times when they really do come out and say that they are proud of me for what I've been doing..

It's Day Two

of NOT being a PhD student.. and I am going to go to the lab already. But its going to be to clear my desk out. Otherwise all I am going to do is

Go to buy a houseplant- the clover looks a little lonely..

Plant the bulbs I bought - indoor ones.. I work small scale.

It is VERY wierd, not having something to obsess about..I mean no more am I going to have to think about if the experiment I set up yesterday will or will not work. I am thinking of keeping plain 8-5 hours in my current job..and then come home and take care of ME. I may get a laptop from work, but I think now priorities have shifted. I me myself and family will come first and second depending on the situation, and work will come third, atleast for a while now.

In the long term, I need to get back into gardening mode. Recruit someone I know to teach me gardening in the ground.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

What next?

After 6 looooong years, I am finally done. Done with being a PhD student. Finally everyone can rest easy. My parents who were seriously worried about my mental health have now let a sigh of relief. Hopefully there wont be anymore crazies anymore.

They were hard. The past 6 years. At least twice everyday for the past 4 years, I felt like giving the whole thing up. And at least twice in the past 4 years I had seriously considered it. Now that its over, all those things seem so tiny. And getting through just seems so worthwhile. As if all that drama would have gone to waste had I given up midway through. At least now I have a degree to show for it. And a few publications.

I still don't know what I am going to do next. Right now, I am in a setting which lets me get an idea of how life would be if I were to join the industry.. but at the same time, some forces are making me consider the idea of teaching. And it isn't seeming so bad. I like to teach, and the people who teach me the teaching course certainly seem really excited about the profession. But would I want to go through the whole 6 years all over again, when I try to get tenure? I don't think so..

I do have a year to figure out what I want to do, and then another year to prepare my CV accordingly..

But as of now, as it is sinking in that I can;t say 'Sqrlnt, PhD student' anymore, i am confused about what my new identity will be. Oh well, at least for the next 4 months or so, it could be 'sqrlnt, mommy to be'. Unfortunately, I almost threw up from an overdose of maternity advice I might just be over that...

Sunday, October 11, 2009

It's my birthday

Unsually cheery and energetic today. Won't ask why, but capitalize on it.

Plan today:

1) Go over slides for presentation

2) Go to lab and printout copy of thesis

3) Sandwiches for lunch

4) Go to the library and return books, maybe get a new one.

5) Rehearse slides.

6) Anything else that may be required.

Note that there is no opening of gifts, going out for lunch etc. involved. That is all left for the next weekend..

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Hello again

Just thought I should blog again. The last day in my twenties today. Don't know why it is such a landmark, except because now I can't taunt A about being a 30-something and me being only a 20-something.

But I guess they do deserve a look back. My twenties that is. My 'life plan' was derailed for 2 years, so my plans of having a PhD by the time I was thirty were down in the drain. But since that was only because of scheduling conflicts, I don't feel so bad. Atleast I am defending in the first week of my thirties, which is actually a good thing. All the drama in the 20s, and the finale in the 30s.

I also started a new job. It is the dhobi ka kutta type of a job, but hey it does pay me more, and I get to stay in the place I want. Not altogether a bad deal.

Other fun stuff happened in the 20s. More on that later.

If by any chance some people who know me happen to come by this post, I am REALLY very sorry I haven't kept in touch. Was quite the depressed little pup for the past 8 months or so. Will elaborate later, and call as well.